warning

so. i absolutely cannot wait for tomorrow. for a lot of reasons. and im no optimist,

not because i was laid off last thursday and will be entering yet another manufacturing plant in this region making it my third in the last year and two months, all in some blued attempt (ill leave that for you to interpret, "blued attempt") at being converted from temporary employee with little to no benefits to permanent union, etc, etc, blah. three plants, over a year, sometimes not having a day off for four months at a time. sure, it doesnt make sense. nothing does really. but my agenda is full and i now do whatever i am supposed to do, or try to at least. so vague. right? sure.

no, im not anticipating november 5, 2008 because of that.

nor am i looking forward to tomorrow like i used to. the down-trodden (if thats the right hyphenated word(s) to use), bleak attitude that sustained me for so many years. tomorrow used to be about one day closer to, well, the end. not anymore. but happiness isnt sexy, you know. its annoying. this disturbing mental state, its over-rated. i like content. im very content. with a whole bunch of anger somewhere. anyway.

dan rather was just thinking on the television. not talking. thinking.

tomorrow, november 5, 2008. its a big day, man. huge. and the best part,
-no more commercials telling me:

• mccain is a shorter version of bush
• obama plays with racists and terrorists
• mccain is another bush
• obama is a terrorist
• mccain and his so-called tax breaks
• obama and his so-called tax-and-spend
• mccain and iraq (come to think of, they quit talking about the war so much...hm)

election years are terrible. absolutely terrible. and i have yet to find someone who will convince me that all this matters. that a single voice matters. that a vote matters. that someone whos been laid off three times in one year, makes at or near the poverty line for a family of three, that isnt a plumber, that owes more money than theyll ever make, thats hasnt relied on the government for help, doesnt want to rely on anyone for help...eh, forget it. im angry today. and tired.

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